Monday, May 14, 2012

Mother's Day 2012

I think as mom’s we live our lives every day and sometimes forget what a special role we have in our kid’s lives. We get to watch them grow, help them make good choices and have an influential impact on the adults they will become. I really never had a desire to be a mom when I was young or even when I was an adult honestly. Some women have this dire need to have children and have a family and I wasn’t interested in the kid part, just the husband part.
There have been many times I have even examined if my lack of desire to have kids has hindered my bond with Alexander or his ability to see that he is the light of my life and I love no one on this earth more than him? As a mom I think you have the tendency to worry about these things even if you dreamed of a heard of children running to and fro in your living room. I don’t believe anyone is different from the other when it comes to being a good mom and worrying if you’re doing a good job.

But, each Mother’s Day no matter what trials and tribulations we face on that day or the days before, I am reminded of the importance of my job as a mom and how influential I am in Alexander’s life. Influential in teaching him to count, learn how to socialize, mow the yard, use a hammer, and most importantly how to love and worship God. I would never trade my freedom for a day of life without my son. I believe God puts people in your life for a reason; to teach you things, bring friendship where there’s none, and give you a light on days when it’s dark. I believe God gave me Alexander to teach me patience and kindness and the fine art of biting my tongue a record number of times a day! I am forever thankful for him and for my life as it is. While I believe that the title “Mom” and "Wife" are only part of who I am, I have thought many times in the past few months that after all these years of decisions that were not favorable to me or God, that I am whole. I do wish for anything in my life. I am fed both spiritually and physically (physical maybe too much at times), I have a loving husband, a wonderful family and friends, an awesome church home, and great health. So, despite days when I am stressed, feel like running away, or am just down right exhausted, I remember all the good things in my life and am thankful for my many blessings as a Mom!